Surreal, is one word which for some reason has always fascinated me, it basically just means something that is out of the normal.

Anyway it’s been really long since I last wrote, not because I didn’t have anything to write rather there was so much that my writing skills conceded defeat even before making an attempt to capture its true essence. 

The reason?.. well lot of things happening in my life has been so surreal (had to use it) ,that the “unexpected” has become the way of life.

Another reason that have stayed away from writing, is (I guess) highlighted in the above statements, it is my inability to tilt my thinking towards the positive side of things…

Been finding it very difficult to fool myself. It’s not that I don’t want to see the positive side of things, but that I don’t want to give myself any false hope.

There are very few things that I have valued in life, and hence they mean a really lot.. When you have very few things that mean something to you, more often than not, you can put forth a formidable defense to whatever life throws at you.. but then as is the nature of things on the flip side when you are close to losing one or all of those few things that mean everything in life.. you have this weird hollow feeling within you..

It is a very different feeling, one that I have just not been able give shape using the keys that are at my disposal..

It is a feeling, which is a mix of the way you feel when you start descending on the giant wheel, and when someone has robbed you of your favorite memories..