There are thoughts:

Unexpressed, unrealized, uncultivated

But they still run wild

There is fear:

Unaccepted, avoided, unknown

But they still scare..

There is hope:

Unsaid, bottled up,

It still surges up..

There is pain:

Hidden, tolerated, with held

It still hurts

There are expectations:

Miniscule, runoff the mill, filtered,

Nonetheless; they are there

There are feelings

Held back, turned away, tucked away, reasoned with, fought against

They still exist, they still haunt, they still ask questions..

I try..

I fail, I fall, I disappoint, I hurt..

But am trying, am trying..